Come Forth My Persona

#1
You say you love me so when do i become a priority
You say you love me so when do i become nessecary
I love you more than I've ever loved
But now i feel like im slowly losing you
Many call me a stupid fool for loving you
But that's all i'll ever do
I wake up at night and cry and i begin to wonder why
Then i open my eyes and see no one by my side
You once said our song was No Air
Well i can't breathe without you here
I once said you take my breath away
And i even wrote a song for you
But now i feel like we're heading for a trainwreck
But then i realize you'll always be my baby
Even on my most important day
All i wanted was for you to stay
But to my dismay you couldn't stay
My heart weighed heavy for the rest of the day
It got so bad even i didnt wanna stay
Baby your the one i love the one i want
To share a life of happieness
But first i must get rid of the darkness
That slowly creeps around my heart
Please baby shine the light that you hold so near
shine it so i'll never fear
Shine it on this lonely heart of mine

#2
I wake up at night and cry
But now i 've wasted too much
time and tears on my
fears and nightmares
From now on all i'm gonna do is
smile and pray and thank the lord
for letting me live to see another day
Im a pray for the only people who show they care
my mother the person who never
betrayed my trust or laughed at my future ,
my grandmother who always show that
she's always there and my best friends
4 to count who are always there and
who i'd never want to shed a tear

The Wait

she sits silently
alone except for her thoughts
shes lost all shes had
all shes ever wanted
she wonders whats her purpose
whats the point of the life she holds within
it was never hers to control
always there for others to manipulate
so she always gave in.
now shes spinnin around in a spiral of darkness
a whirlpool of emotions and hate
the hole in which she was born into grows deeper
as she moves father and father from her lifes gate.
from the sides of her eyes she glimpses light
and once again her heart grows light
but jus as before as she turns to warm her core
its a reflection, and just as quickly its gone as before.
she sinks deeper
hating herself more and more for hoping
this is the life she was given
in her hole she sinks deeper
her walls filled with slime and gore
she can nolonger call for help
her throat is parched and sore
but as a last effort to rise up
her heart calls out once more.
in response is a darker silence
her heart crys out once more
but theres nothing to hold onto
no one is there to answer its call
finally she gives up, her heart is weary of its efforts
she slowly disappears from this world
as the darkness engulfs her.
but a sharp pain is felt
her heart violently yanked up
she is scared of whats happening
unsure of whats to come
she fights at her life string, willing it to let go
but her heart calms as it has realised whats happened
a love has finally answered its call
her heart is held onto by a string
her love will not let her sink deeper in.
she has found that one reason for living
as she tries to yank herself out
to be with the one she loves
that one that was finally able to warm her core.
she focuses on the light, first time in years
she struggles not to lose sight of it
because then everything will end.
she is able to smile now
though still within her hole
but if her love doesnt give up on her
or she on herself
she will finally be able to stand in the light
this for sure she knows.
-elshardi

It's been years sinced i've laugh so much,
I closed my heart and and choose to be alone
Putting myself in a place of closure
where I felt I did not belong
Now i know wat my heart longs for
is the thought of holding you
Now i sit here wondering what am i supposed to do
My emotions are all tide up in a web of feelings
Trying to figure out how to approach u
Should i take my time and plan ahead
or go all out and live life on the edge
Cause your the one i want the one
i saw first the one who stole my heart
So u know what ima take u by the hand
Stare u in your beautyful eyes
And ask u to live life on the edge with me
Cause in the end i know my heart will never lie
It will not deciuz me
It will guide to my destiny
The destiny i've always sought to find
Where in it your always mines

(Now if only she knew this is how i feel)