Come Forth My Persona

The Wait

she sits silently
alone except for her thoughts
shes lost all shes had
all shes ever wanted
she wonders whats her purpose
whats the point of the life she holds within
it was never hers to control
always there for others to manipulate
so she always gave in.
now shes spinnin around in a spiral of darkness
a whirlpool of emotions and hate
the hole in which she was born into grows deeper
as she moves father and father from her lifes gate.
from the sides of her eyes she glimpses light
and once again her heart grows light
but jus as before as she turns to warm her core
its a reflection, and just as quickly its gone as before.
she sinks deeper
hating herself more and more for hoping
this is the life she was given
in her hole she sinks deeper
her walls filled with slime and gore
she can nolonger call for help
her throat is parched and sore
but as a last effort to rise up
her heart calls out once more.
in response is a darker silence
her heart crys out once more
but theres nothing to hold onto
no one is there to answer its call
finally she gives up, her heart is weary of its efforts
she slowly disappears from this world
as the darkness engulfs her.
but a sharp pain is felt
her heart violently yanked up
she is scared of whats happening
unsure of whats to come
she fights at her life string, willing it to let go
but her heart calms as it has realised whats happened
a love has finally answered its call
her heart is held onto by a string
her love will not let her sink deeper in.
she has found that one reason for living
as she tries to yank herself out
to be with the one she loves
that one that was finally able to warm her core.
she focuses on the light, first time in years
she struggles not to lose sight of it
because then everything will end.
she is able to smile now
though still within her hole
but if her love doesnt give up on her
or she on herself
she will finally be able to stand in the light
this for sure she knows.
-elshardi